Oye Vay!!
What a month it’s been! So much to do, so much going on that there hasn’t been time to sit back and breathe even for a moment.
I’m the kind of person that values friendships, especially with my best friends. I’ve found that I have been very much needed in the past month or so! What about me? Who will be there for me if I’m helping them? I ask because right now I need someone too.
I had a girls night back at the end of August. We were planning our annual girls camping trip and we usually do a girls night to hammer out the last minute things and have some fun while doing so. I actually stepped away from everyone for just over an hour to have a much needed session with one of my besties. I thought it had helped and went back in to the other girls as not to be rude. I guess I was wrong! Turns out I didn’t help at all and she didn’t say anything till just before our camping trip. I really wish she had said something sooner! I feel bad that she actually thought I blew her off!!! I would never blow her or any of my besties off, NEVER!!!!!! I hope she knows that I truly am here for her whenever she needs me, ANYTIME!!! You see, my friendship with her is special, we’ve come a long way over the years and I’m not about to give up or walk away from her no matter who gets mad or what the reason is! I love her, always will!!
I have another friend who is going through some tough times. She’s down because she’s overweight, having issues in her profession and just recently moved home and is living with her parents. I’m trying my best to encourage her and keep her spirtis up the best I can.
Another friend is going through some extremely difficult marrital issues. Her husband walked away from her after 20 years of marriage and 23 years of being together. See, they were everything to each other prior to this. She found out that he slept with a girl in her young 20’s, near the age of their oldest daughter. He continues to see this girl while telling her that he just needs time. She’s been at my house almost daily. I’m exhausted! Have you ever seen the movie Groundhog Day? That’s how I feel! I hear the same thing from her and I keep telling her the same thing over and over. I just feel like right now she needs to get angry with him and the situation and begin dusting herself off and move on. She’s beautiful and loving!
With all of this going on I have neglected myself, my house duties, etc. I feel like crap, inside and out, just feel like shutting down. Not good!! My life has been crazy lately!!!!
Been doing a lot of canning, seems like I’ve only had 2 days off of canning in the last few weeks. Tomatoes, apples, turnips, pickles of all sorts, jams and jellies, etc., etc. Haven’t even been cooking which is terrible. For that matter, I haven’t eaten a lot lately. I need to find myself again!! The fun, loving, optimistic and spunky person that I usually am.
To all of my besties: Hang in there, I’m still here for you and always will be!!!! I have issues too and I’m trying my best to do everything I can for all of you and myself. Right now I’ve kind of lost myself. So sorry!
Don’t give up on me!!!!!!
Oye Vay!!!
shalandral 